...to dance beneath the diamond sky with one hand waving free....

09 March, 2011

solitude





My neighbor gave me an article from the Boston Globe about being alone.
 (You can see it here, if you are interested.)

I frequently think about being alone for a good block of time.
I think many people do who are living with a loved one who is disabled.
These days, I crave being by myself,
perhaps because it is such a rare thing--especially in the winter in Maine.


Used to be that I would avoid being alone whenever possible.
An extrovert by nature, I'd seek out other people for fun and stimulation.
The Globe article, by Leon Neyfakh, points out how our 
culture views being alone as suspect, in a way.
Maybe the one who wants to be alone is depressed, has a social phobia, 
is deranged or broken in some way.
Yet I find my alone times are rich with inner experiences that heal and sustain me.

Eric Klinenberg, a sociologist at New York University,
put it this way in the article:
"There is something very liberating for people about being on their own.  They're able to establish some control over the way they spend their time.  They're able to decompress at the end of a busy day in a city...and experience a feeling of freedom."

The challenge is to find that kind of time while being a 
companion, fixer, driver, problem solver, finder, 
memory and medical/financial associate
of the man I love.

Does anyone else out there struggle with this?  
What do you do when you are alone that heals you?

And how do you make sure you take the time?




07 March, 2011

tax relief



Have I mentioned I really hate bookkeeping?

I stopped taking math when I was a junior in high school.  That was 1962.

I use a calculator to balance my checkbook,
I also use a computer bookkeeping application,
and I study my bank balance, both on paper and online.

Most of the time, I get four different numbers. 
Then I add it all up again on the calculator
to see who wins,
and I get a fifth number.  If it wasn't so pathetic,
it would be funny.

This all used to be my husband's job, until his brain injury.
We have a small counseling business, and of course the usual bills and stuff.
I have four checking accounts, which actually makes things easier.  (ha)

When tax time rolls around, I go berserk.  Like this:



I have a sweet little room in my house that is my room for play.
Tax time, it gets invaded by very scary stuff.  
(And all I really have to do is just get things together 
and fill out this little 15-ish page form for the Tax Lady.)
  

My heart beats hard, my stomach hurts, and as I said in a previous post,
I flit around the house thinking up things to do so I don't have
to go in there.  Until I can't delay any longer.

Corporation taxes are due on March 15.  (Who knew that?)
This weekend was Deadline Weekend.   Ick.
 I survived.  Here's how:

There is an inn in a nearby town that has a most spectacular Sunday brunch.
It isn't cheap, but the food is to die for.  All-you-can-eat buffet.
Just look at the menu.


I made a deal with myself:  if I could be done by brunch time on Sunday,
we would go and eat to our heart's content.
(extra bonus:  after this brunch, we are so full that nobody wants dinner cooked later.)

I finished my tax prep!!!!  (I am no fool.)


This being Maine, look at the first thing you see when you go into the buffet room.


I kid you not.  All you can eat.
Plus,  all the food  in the photos below, and more.  
Do you notice the pictures aren't in focus completely?
Neither was I.  




.....you get the idea.


What does it say about me that I took photos of tables full of entrees and salads,
But when it came to the desserts, each got a photo of its own??







Plus I had a mimosa.  Just one.  



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Here is my sewing/beading/painting/quilting/knitting play room now.

My projects await, and Daylight Savings Time happens next weekend!!!

Life is grand once more.



05 March, 2011

on widgery wharf



There were signs of life on Widgery Wharf yesterday as I was exploring.





...Although mostly there were towering stacks of waiting traps everywhere.







Many of which were delightfully occupied. 

(Here's where I needed that long lens I don't have.)
  

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I was charmed by the fish houses that line the wharf. 
These houses are where lobster folk mend their traps, get out of the weather,
play cribbage and tell tales.

Each one has its own personality:






This one sported that smiley face and the sign attached:

...so true!



I wanted to move right into this one.
(See those ugly condos behind that took over a neighboring wharf
in the 90's real estate boom?  None of that for me.....)


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Meet Nick.


He and two buddies were jawing about this and that
when I came by.
They gave me some information that I thought was interesting,
but only Nick wanted his photo took for some dern blog.

(Does he fit your stereotype??)

Nick's anonymous friend pointed out some things
about lobster traps for the "people from away" in my audience.
(At least, some of you are "from away", as they say here.)

Remember the old, all-wooden lobster traps that are an icon for Downeast?

They don't use them much anymore, except to sell to said people "from away"
to use as lawn ornaments or (somewhat stinky) coffee tables.

Most traps these days are made of heavy wire mesh,
such as most of the ones above which are stacked to the heavens.
They are lighter weight, make it easier to install new lobster-friendly devices, 
are more colorful,
but they can take a beating on a rocky bottom in a rough sea sometimes.

Lately, some folks are building a new kind of "wooden" trap
like this one here.
 I think the wooden framing makes them a bit more sturdy.



Notice the white spherical thing inside, hanging from a thin white rope?

Golfball.

This particular fisherman rigged this to fight the fleas, 
which live on the bottom
and can eat your bait faster than
my dog on a dropped salami sandwich. 

He drapes his bait bag above the ball.
(I guess for fleas, jumping in water is difficult.)

Here is the basic plan of a trap.

The two kind of elliptical rings on the left of the trap
are actually circular rings, tilted a bit toward
the bottom--one on each side.  

The yellow thing suspended from the white rope 
is the bait bag. 


The inside of the trap is called the "parlor"
as in "come into my parlor, said the herring to the lobster..."

Once the lobster enters that ring, it is flummoxed 
in the cone shaped netting, which it probably doesn't 
notice until the bait is gone.

See the brick?  That is for ballast.
Lobstermen used to use huge, wonderful smooth stones instead.

As lobsters mostly travel backwards when they are moving quickly,
they have a chance of exiting the way they entered,
but many remain stuck.

Which is why modern laws have required other escape mechanisms.
As my lobsterman said,
"these days they make you put more things on the trap 
for the lobsters to escape than to trap them
in the first place."

Here is one of those things.


The black plate covers a rectangular hole that is 
big enough for handy exit, 
if you are a lobster.

If the trap's line becomes parted from the buoy 
which floats on the surface of the water,
the line sinks to the bottom, and the trap is likely lost.  
The wire rings on the corners
of this plate rust in time on the ocean floor
and then everybody gets to go home.

 But if all goes as (humanly) planned, the traps get pulled
on the next fishing day.
All those lobsters smaller than a certain length, and all females with eggs,
get thrown back overboard.
The rest come to shore, get sold to a distributor,
and a yummy dinner awaits the lucky person.



Even by way of UPS to people "from away"!




04 March, 2011

working waterfront


Today I drove my husband to Portland for a neuro-rehab appointment.

I packed my knitting and some earphones and planned to park in the sunshine
for the hour or so he was going to be occupied.
...But the lure of the lens and a sense of adventure led me to the wharves
on this cold but still day.  

I took so many photos  today that I'll break them up into two posts.

Here, I'll try to show the winter quiet on a "summertime-busy" wharf.























Though I had to keep blowing on my fingers and re-applying my mittens,
it was a beautiful, calm day on the water.


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There definitely are fisherfolk on the water and working--but in March in Maine 
some folks give over and go where it is warm for a spell.
Especially those who work hard all summer.


So some boats sport this kind of look: 




And the wharf itself has piles and piles that look like this:



and this:


...doesn't it look like this person left the "office" in a bit of a hurry?


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Yet there is also a kind of beauty and order in the silence.





....tomorrow we will talk about lobstering and lobster fishers.




03 March, 2011

a poem for today





The Lake Isle of Innisfree

I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made;
Nine bean rows will I have there, a hive for the honeybee,
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.

And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight's all a-glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet's wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear the water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements gray,
I hear it in the deep heart's core.

   William Butler Yeats









02 March, 2011

taxes, and tax therapy



I'm like a hummingbird today.

I have to get stuff together for taxes.  Both for us and our business.
My way of doing this so far has been to flit here and there,
never stopping anywhere for long.

This part of life is definitely not my thing.

I could tell you about the million diversions I have thought up so far today.
This post being the most recent.

So I went to look at some photos of my grand-bunny.



Maybe she will inspire me.

The girl always gets right to what she sets her mind to do.